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Wednesday, May 12, 2004


May 11 2004 --- Thoughts For The Day


Today isnt a monday so i guess there shouldnt be any monday blues to talk about but but there is always a but ... i m actually feeling quite blue n pek chek ... for some reasons which i couldnt figure out myself either ... i wonder if i will be able to trace to the root of it all ... coz i know that if i dun ... i will be tied as time passes by ... of coz that isnt a thing that i wan lor ... maybe it is juz a coincidence that things ard u tends to happen at the same time ... peaceful times r too peaceful while chaotic times r simply too chaotic to handle ba ... *shrugZz* wat a life ... i have pple who r depressed over BGR ... i have pple who r troubled over money ... i hav pple who upsets me by not taking care of themselves ... hmmm ... i tend to tell them "hey, look on the bright side ... take it in ur stride" but i guess it is always easier said than done lah ... to me myself ... i perceived myself as a very strong person on the outside ... someone who is immune to the hurtful sources around me .... i dun allow myself to fall in front of others ... ever since the blow back in 2001 ... i think that life has given me a very good length of polishing and well ... to me ... i think if i can survive the loss back then ... wat is it that others cant handle now ? is those 'trival' matters really worth 'dying' for ? or is it that the 'correct way of loving' that i hav always wanted to uphold is wrong afterall ? in situations where i cant handle or too drained to withstand ... i simply leave it to meant to be and see where nature is going to take matters to ... and gladly accept the outcomes ... the outcome of freewill and freefall ... sometimes when u feel drained n tired out ... take a rest ... let nature take over coz we all need to understand that happiness can b pursued but not forced =D may all things thrive under the free force and thoughts be straightened out ... wo zhen de hao lei ... hmm ... but i guess to be able to 'voice' it out is a good thing ... hmmm ... feels better ... maybe its time to head down to the gym to vent some frustrations and coop myself in sauna to evapourate the pek chek-ness too .... tired ... damn tired ... off day off day ... phew -_-


KeL speaks @3:25 PM                                    _`天注定`_