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Wednesday, October 20, 2004


Oct 20 2004 --- Omens


The post is dedicated to person(s) not interested in my daily life. I had reservations about posting this coz it contradicted with the whole blog and maybe it never reaches the intended recipient ... anyway ... who know if this might be the last ... on this blog before moving on with Santiago =)

Urim & Thummim are great guides to omens, working ever closely with our heart to constantly remind ourselves of our subconscious goals and dreams ... but the heart seemingly has a mind of its own, despite being linked closely to every individual, not every attempt to touch its owner is fruitful ... as time goes by ... it stop telling and reminding its owner of it subconscious goals ... we are forever good at substituting ... be it things ... persons ... goals ... achievements ... it juz seems like everything has its substitutes ... be it for the good or for the worse ... by revolving ard the thinking of meant to be all this while ... i have grown accustomed to the way of waiting for things to happen and the free fall of nature which has been good and bad ... good that it has taught me to take things easy and moulded me into one who can take losses and failures ... learning to cope and face up to the harsh reality ... bad that it remove the motivation and urge to fight ... where the enthu to strive diminish bit by bit ... this is of coz happening to me consciously and to many others unconsciuosly ba ... how many a times when we saw something that struck us a deciding factor when trying to make decision ? from a simple thing of deciding to go classes or skip it for a movie and the bus to the nearest cinema in town arrived ... a sign ... heaven is asking me to go town ... wondering wat number to buy for 4d and a car showing ur birthdate zoom past ... surely that got to be a sign ... or is it a familiar scene that something happened ard u and everything juz seems so so familiar ... the creeps it give while it 'replays' right before ur eyes ... deja vu as pple calls it ... it may means something that we subconsciously been wanting to do and had walk through it mentally but never put into action ... and watching it happening to others seems to be seeing urself going through it again ... never fails to send shivers down a person ... sometimes when these things happens it always result in regrets and hatred to oneself for not heeding the signs and omens earlier ... we are always result oriented ... working towards things that is our ultimate aim and often forgetting that sometimes it jus isnt the result but the process ... but of coz the process is often overshadowed by results coz the latter is seen by more pple than the former ... we may once think that achieving a certain goal will bring joy and amidst working towards it stumbled upon others that give a similar feeling and decided to settle for what we thot was meant to be ... despite it being different from the expected goal ... we advert changes ... once stopped ... will be hard to move on again ... juz isnt worthwhile to be letting our possessions go and move on in search of the original goals ... only to be haunted by the regrets when one's time is up and finding oneself having no time nor ability to achieve wat was originally aimed ... forever the regrets will follow ... till afterlife if there ever is ... till the day when we restart as Day Zero ... it will always be there ... why am i crapping all these now ne ?? keke ... for a simple reason ... a belief ... a belief in meant to be and also the reversal of meant to be ... waitg to see a merger of both and learning that different beliefs is needed to apply for different aspects of life ... this is the exact opposite that once touches my heart 2 years back ... the essential wisdom of listening to our heart, learning to read the omens strewn along life's path and above all ... following our dreams ... Santiago could have enjoyed his life's treasure by staying put on the orignal spot but chose to go in search of his dreams ... only to find at the end of the search that his dreams was wat he originally had ... waste of time ??? nope ... not really ... whlist in search of his life's treasure he had seen things that he would never had been able see had he stayed put ... to u ... i will say follow ur dreams ... dun ever see things from the surface ... what may seems smooth on the above may not be the same deep down ... a calm sea has a potential deadly current awaiting 'explorers' and to tread in it may mean hurt and scarred but to come out of it unscathed is a feeling unmatched above all ... i have seen pple fall and rise ... i have seen scams once and again ... i have also warn against it more times than anything else ... be blessed ... follow ur heart and dreams for it may never bug u to pursue it again ... never rewinding ... never repeating ... and never ever the same ...


KeL speaks @1:12 AM                                    _`天注定`_