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Tuesday, March 08, 2005


Mar 8 2005 --- Reminiscing


Reminiscing is a beautiful process i guess ? hmmm ... it makes one realise how much one treasures or failed to treasure the past .. how one manage to put down the past and transform all meomories into nice memories ... ytd nite went with sam for a drink at 65 ... hmmm ... been a real long time since last drank with him le ... still remember the time when i started cheonging ... was always sticking with him and the rest of the gang ... then bit by bit they retired liao and it was all up to me and the younger generation who 'took over' and continue to cheong ... tonite as sitting at 65 jas came up ... jas not working today but dropped by after work ... hmmm ... as we sat at the table the feeling of the past days seems to dwell upon me ... remember how in the past where every weekend was a cheonging nite without fail and everyone juz played ... of coz at that time jas was still a dao ger ... at least to me lah ... she seldom or never came to talk to us ... not that she is obliged to do so but somehow after some time ended up being frens liao ... ya ... cheonging environment may not always be at its best but over the 8 yrs of cheonging it has indeed brought some things and pple that i begin to treasure ... suddenly feel old at heart ... suddenly realise that as compared to the past the urge and appeal to cheong seems to hav died off greatly ... indeed the past cheonging days were fun but somehow the feeling of cheonging now seems to feel different ... somehow somewhere something is lacking and cant be put in place ... maybe that is wat reminiscing is all about ba ? looking back and realising that things will never be the same again =/ ... sometimes wonder if the cheonging presently is all about searching for the feeling back then ... something the the heart is holding onto deep down but will never be likely to be found again ... does reminiscing provide for letting go ... moving on and facing new beginning too ?

Life is somehow balanced ba i guess ? u gain some while u lose some ... duno duno ... hao luan =/


KeL speaks @12:30 AM                                    _`天注定`_