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Thursday, May 26, 2005


May 26 2005 --- Long Post ... Are Moth Spiritual ??


hmmm ... have u heard of the saying that moths or i duno if it is called moths ... but in chinese is called fei er ... is spiritual ?? hmmm ... as a matter of fact ... those who know me rather well shld know that flying insect of bigger size freaks me out ... yup ... they are my nemesis ... housefly mosquitos i not scared lah of coz ... but moths ... butterflies ... dragonfly ... flying cockroaches ... etc etc ... ya lah ... mummy always like to say me ... i wasnt born with my guts ... hmm ... ya lah ... maybe ba ... unless in time of need ... i think i will be scared of them ... maybe if got pple ard me who are even more scared than i m .... be it guy or ger ... then i cannot be afraid liao ... muz 'protect' them ... cannot all freak out together hahaha ... think the only time flying insects was nothing to me was in army ... outfield training till so shag liao and anything that comes flying towards me will most prob die ... ya lah ... only at that time nia ... hmmm ... digressing liao ... back to moth ...


was it the raining season these few days that sprung up the birth and growth of moths ??? had an encounter with a moth ... erm ... the colour and size was agar the same so i presume it the same lah ... not that the TIMID me went to look at it closely of coz hahaha ... dun think there are many palm sized ... i mean my palm ... that's about 3 namecards together ba ... moths lurking ard ba ... the reason why i was wondering if moths are really spiritual is because i used to hear pple saying that the deceased of the family will sometimes visit the family in the form of a moth ... thats also the reason y pple normally see cockroach ah or watever insect they will hit but not a moth ... some will call them butterfly or moth goddess ... and somehow i m beginning to wonder ... after my last encounter ... if the moth was really ah ma or daddy that came back ... yes ... that doesnt erase the fact that i m still scared by it ... since ah ma's anniversary is nearing ... could it be her ?? my encounter with the particular moth began last weekend i think ... when i got home rather late ... ard 3plus ... i was walking along the corridor to the staircase that will lead up to my house when i saw it resting on the top of the wall along the corridor ... *stunned* suddenly jolted up ... i was like ... shucks ... hmmm ... hesitating if i shld walk past ... wat if it suddenly fly -__-" ... ya .. the reason y i fear them is coz they fly faster than i can siam definately ... in the end after a while ... i dashed past it quickly and after turning around to ensure it was still at the original place then i went up ...


the second encounter ... i was walking home with my xiaomei on tuesday and while walking i was telling her about my encounter with the moth and juz finish telling her when we were walking past a sheltered pathway when *bingo* ... u were rite if u were guessing i suppose ... haha ... my xiaomei actually tell me ... "kor ... is that the moth u r talking about ?" looking up the roof of the pathway ... yes ... the same moth ... freaked out ... but not scared this time coz the area is very open ... lotsa place to detour if need arises ... the journey home was relaxed coz i know wun see it at my block ...


juz yesterday ... thats the wednesday that juz past a while ago ... i was cycling back to my block and took a lift up ... i was looking out for the moth again ... hmmm .. didnt see it ... relieved ... i went up the stairs to lock my bike juz a flight of stairs below my flat ... as i was reversing ... oh dear !!!!!!!! the moth was resting on the last flight of stairs .... barely 1.5m away from me ... without a second thots ... i wheeled the bike back down again ... kaoz ... no way i m going to walk past the moth at such close range ... hmmm ... detour detour ... went 11th floor to go down instead ... dread it ... before i wheel down the first flight ... another moth ... a bit smaller size ... i gave up ... stand at the corridor on 11th storey and blow wind ... cant believe my 'luck' -___-" anyway ... eventually i managed to lock my bike and got home ... with some help of coz ...


ok ... it's not to emphasis on my timidness ... but to put the point across that the moth is sticking ard my flat and ya lah ... somehow i feel the urge to believe that it is spiritual ... hmmm ... i duno ... but somehow it is really too qiao that i m always encountering it ... and i do remember how much ah ma teng wo ... hmmm ... next time i see it ... i shall telepath with it ... zhen de ... i will =)


KeL speaks @12:36 AM                                    _`天注定`_