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Saturday, July 21, 2012


Jul 21 2012 --- Of the recent happenings ~


its been a month and well ~ certain things happening ~ including the scandal that i speculated ... well ... heard it from the horse's mouth hahaha ~ and hmmm ... guess wat ... i 'flared' up at her ... she really darn not fren lor ... blatantly lie to me when i asked her previously ... somehow its juz disappointing how come i always get this kind of things in life ... sometimes i questioned myself if it is just me ... i placed certain pple at certain level thinking i am at least of the same level where they place me ... and turn out actually i dun mean much to them ... call it overvaluing myself or wat but sometimes it jus get me down at times ...

maybe this incident coincidentally appear similar to the past incident when SW was speculated to be with KMS which everyone is surprised at the combination and of course i m surprised myself too and i asked her and she told me no i really believe her unreservedly and i spoke up for her amidst all the sightings that others had rumoured or heard ... in the end ... turns out that i was proven wrong ... it was darn devastating considering that i look upon her as a good fren and she simply lied to me ... anyway i subconsciously distance myself after that ... anyway i left the airport later on anyway ... sometimes i duno if i m too demanding ... i always advocate that u can tell me u dun wish to talk about it and i respect that ... but dun ever lie to me ... coz once i found it out ... i really really cannot see the person in the same light anymore ... thats me ... but i guess some may say that my option to the person is as good as none ... coz if it isnt the case they can juz outright tell me it isnt true ... and if they say they dun wan to talk about it ... it is as good as silence admission ... so either way i had force an answer out of them ... maybe the better option is to be ignorant of all the happenings then i will be happier =X

hmmm ... J called me again ... twice but i missed both calls ... guess nothing good again ... probably to borrow $ again ... haiz ... wonder how it can end ... somehow i just think that i cant leave him in lurch but there is really a limit of how much i can help him ... its getting out of hand ... i m considering if i need to take the dreaded step but my inner thoughts are fighting ... if the step really changed some things ... i think i gonna feel guilty forever ... how ... wat can i do ? =.=

ok ~ some happy things ... ah lian is traditionally married ~ yea ~ ok lah ... it was not anything real fanciful but i can feel the bliss ~ somehow i think they suit each other and hmmm ~ she sang at her wedding ~ kinda remind me of saozi who sang at her wedding too ... think its really a sweet thing to do ~ and i think she sang quite well ^^ too bad its a monday dinner ... if not i probably would have wanted to chiong her and hubby liquor ... i hadnt challenge such events in a while liao ... not too sure if i still had it but well ... maybe i get to try it at some other wedding in future~

hmmmm ... henry next ~~ well ... he fell in love with xiao long nv ... hahaha ~ when i saw that post i was guessing as much liao and the comments posted ... hmmm ... confirmed it ... actually i thought the post was quite subtle lah but then his frens are probably too smart also hahaha ~ and for this issue ... i went to 'interrogate' karen ... being displeased that she didnt tell me ... oops ... this kind of issues again ... think i m really too kpo and too self centred for my own good ... anyway in my mind i am still not accepting it ... if i see her soon with a bulge i will act v surprised until she officially tell me coz her reason was that she wanted to tell her close ones personally and i m suppose to be in the list ... cut her come slack for the time being =X

hadnt been d3-ing much lately ... kinda fighting fire at work while not going to OT ... plus i had always been a paying gamer ... i was tempted to buy gold to get proper gear to chiong but prices are still kinda rocket high so i put a halt to it and currently in a hiatus mode ... suppose to train wifey also but think age is catching up ... get tired easily ... didnt really play late ...

IPT ... hmmm ... supposed to hit a BMI of 36 in order to pass out from the IPT program ... hmmm ... had been trying my best to watch diet coz my will to exercise is darn CMI lah ... got until aug 23 to do it ... oh well ... aug 23 again ... the date where alot of things happened at various years =X both nice n not nice stuff ... oh well ... shall not start that again =X jyjy ~~ see if i can make some miracle =.="

hmmm ~~ juz ended MJ with CK they all ... haiz ... sian leh ... played normal and ended up lost again ... anyway most of the time i play normal is end up losing de lah ... tmd ... every round i play is max win a few hands nia ... play normal is just like throwing $ away for other pple mistakes ... and today they chiongster mood ... darn it ... 2 tai 3 tai also chiong pple 5 tai kind ... gosh ... maybe i shld intro the shooter pay style to them next time ... tmd tmd tmd ... didnt really shoot alot but always keena sabo by others =.= ok ... shant lament much liao ... talking about tmd tmd reminds me of the hxyj whom we always kan each other ... someone is ignoring me lor ... wtf ... dao dao dao ... kakaka ~ she is in her ignoring mood again ... so gonna smack her the next time i see her ~~ shit lor xD


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