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Saturday, June 26, 2004


June 26 2004 --- *yawnz*


ohaiyo ... into the morning hours of a saturday ... hmmm ... no lah ... i not juz reach home from cheonging lah ... juz sort of woke up from a sleep or doze or those kinda not really deep slumber kinda thing ... hmmm ... been feeling the draining of energy these few days from the warehouse sale that is going on ... hmmm ... ya lah ... tiring but it was indeed a fun experience ... the kind of cohesiveness that u feel when working with those colleagues that u see their face everyday but maybe didnt even talk with ... i guess the bonding that i shared with them for these 3 days has way way surpassed the total bonding 'accumulated' so far in my months of working prior to the warehouse sale ... the times when a simple "kelvin ni chi le mei you?" really makes me feel (for the very first time) that maybe i will miss them when i m no longer with them ... suddenly juz seems like actually all along we have wanted to interact but juz dun hav the correct environment ... seems like the gap and stranger feeling between us has gotten lotsa more closer ... hmmm ... ya lah ... the feeling of helping one another like a family really make a company more heart warming than a cold commercial place ... hmmm ... ya lah ... on one hand i could be lamenting that how come sunday gotta work ... but somehow a part in me seems to be looking forward to it ... or maybe even wish that the warehse sale would last longer ... contradicting ah ? -_-! maybe if i were to go to see the dreamcarasaia showat expo later i may end up helping at my company side too -_- hahahaha ... hai .. when a person is drained ... emotions n feelings tend to set in more easily ... hmmm .. wondering how true could that be ? ya lah ... my feelings has always been a cycle witha mixture of peace n chaos ... and the main problem being that peaceful times r too peaceful while chaotic times r too chaotic ... when something happy happens ... more happy things will come ... but whenever i m hurt ... more hurting things will come too ... something that i will always take in my stride though ... the feeling of drinking freezing cold water and releasing them as hot tears ... very very extreme on both ends .... but every complete process means a higher level of self cultivation ba ... the point where accepting the fact that letting go is the way to true freedom is definately very hard i guess ... humans always hav things that they cant let go of ... even when they r about to leave the world ... how many can actually see thru everything in life ne ? so the next best option to do give ur best and minimise all regrets lor ... i do have regrets but well ... so long as kept to my tolerable level ... i guess i m fine ba =) ... hav a good night sleep any wake up to a brand new day =D the recharged person that is really once again to take on the worldly feelings n discarding those hurts of yesterdays ... let the bad of yesterday b auto healed with time and move on =) ... okie ... quotey mood hahahaha ... erm ... let's see ... love isnt blind ... it simply choose the best angle for u to see her flaws ... that's y she's always perfect =D ... okie ... soccer time le =)


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