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Sunday, November 28, 2004


Nov 28 2004 --- Now


hmmm ... so boring wor ... that's y i m blogging ... ya lah ... typing in the dark except for the laptop light ... so i guess with my kinda typing skill ... hard lor ... hmm ... haben been blogging constantly as usual le ... coz not much feelings to write ... or sometimes ... the feelings and things happened too fast for me to capture them into words ... hmmm ... to those ard me who know of my 'PMS' mood and some who even keena it ... hmm ... sorry oh ... but seriously ... despite those times ... this period has really been a happy period for me ... coz the the things that happened ... things i got to do ... the pple that i have company of ... overall shld say i m happy most of the time ... not forgetting those who can bring a smile to me juz at the thot of them =D hmm ... the past week was full of bday celebration ... think this was the first time that my bday celebration was throughout the whole week ... ya lah ... as compared to other years where i dun really celebrate ... this yr was indeed different ... hmmm ... though not very used to it ... but still thanks u guys and gers for the effort =) ... zhen de hen gan dong ... thanks for the company too =) okie ... find some things to crap about since i m bored ... hmmm ... saw an article or forwarded mail shld i say ... after reading it ... reminded me of something someone once told me ...

A couple was together not too long when ....

Ger: Y do u love me ?

Guy: Eerr ...

Ger: (Tears forming) U cant even tell a reason y u love me ?

Guy: I dun have a reason to love u ... i simply love u ...

Ger: U may have love me for smile ... for my care for u ... for my sweetness ... for my looks ... for my bubbliness ... for my lotsa things ... and u cant even say one ...

Guy: But but ...

Ger ran off without listening ... She was involved in an accident that left her deep in coma.

Guy was at her bedside deep in sorrow ...

Guy: Silly ger ... remember how u told me that i could have love u for that many many things u possess ?
if i had love u for ur smile ... u cant smile now ...
if i had love u for ur care for me ... u cant care for me now ...
if i had love u for ur sweetness ... u cant be sweet to me now ...
if i love u for ur looks ... ur looks arent the same now ...
if i had love u for ur bubbliness ... u arent even moving now ... should i still love u ??
u see ... i dun love u for all those reasons ... i simply love u ... that's y i still love u now ...

many a times we are always tied by the past ... worrying how the past can stumble us in the present ... but should that be the case ? in reality ... yes ... there is definately a need to worry ... but the bottomline is ... who doesnt hav a past ... maybe it is juz a unfair perception from society ? something that is silently accepted and never openly challenged ... the idea that guy is always superior ... guy muz be stronger ... guy can fool ard without having pple gossiping ... hmmm ... y is it that a guy who sleep ard is call flirt and even brag about it ... while a ger who sleep ard is labelled cheap ? a guy who fools ard after marriage is deemed as juz playing ard ... while a ger who fools ard is labelled bitch ... a guy isnt expected to be a "v" while a ger is always expected to be one ... hmmm ... that's all the kind of society values and trends that is silently accepted ... okie ... back to wat i was reminded by someone ... someone said ... you dong jiu cha ... chu nu nan zhao ... meaning got hole then poke ... "v" hard to find ... crude i know ... but that's the beginning to continue the story above ...

Heaven was kind enuff to the guy and the ger woke up finally and steadily recovered ... the relationship went on smoothly for a while and the ger was soon a regular visitor to the guy's home ... guy's mum however did not hav a real good impression of the ger ... and the ger always had something meaning to tell the guy ... she had always given him the impression that she was never in a relationship ... but in actual fact ... she had a relationship before and had done it with the previous guy ... knowing that the guy's family was traditional was a pressure for her ... she was soon debating within herself to give it all up ...

Ger: i have something to tell u ...

Guy: ya ?

Ger: i feel more and more pressure with our relationship ... somehow something is holding me back ...

Guy: y ???

Ger: there are things that i need to tell u ... i know ur family is very traditional and u r good to me ... but i have some things that i need u to know ... i know ur mum is a good judge of pple and i know she feels that i m not a good ger for u ... and i really am not ... i have a relationship before ... and had done it with him ... i m sorry ...

Guy: silly ger ... i have said before that i love u not for any reason ... i juz love u so ... mummy may not like u now but it's me u r going to be with ... not mummy and she will know we are true in time to come ... and ... i m not after a membrane that is not even skin deep ... if i cant even accept that past of urs ... i dun deserve to have u ...

the morale of it all is to accept a person for who they are ... remember how i used to say the greatest mistake a ger can make is thinking she can change the guy she loves ... same for a guy ... the greatest beauty is acceptance ... it's not about molding someone into who u want them to be ... it's finding someone who fits ur mold ... okie ... anyway ... the bottomline is that the world is vast ... somewhere somehow ... there will always someone for everyone ... who is my one ne ? =P


KeL speaks @10:58 PM                                    _`天注定`_