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Tuesday, July 25, 2006


Jul 25 2006 --- Waiting Silently ...


wat's ur views on waiting silently for a person ?

wat's ur views of your judgement of your own threshold for love ?

as in how well do u think u can rate your own ability in relationship issues ? example u may feel that u can wait for a overseas guy for 3 yrs but end up u had another guy after 1 yr kinda thing ... or maybe little extreme ... bf/gf jailed ... or in rehab ... or maybe even in coma ...

personally i think that waiting silently is a romantic thing to do ... if done with the correct attitude ...

yes ... i do know n see very often those emails on telling ur loved ones that u love them ... those it may b too late if u wait ... loved ones may leave anytime ... ger went off with another guy coz both parties waiting for each other to make first move ... and the famous leaf wind n tree story ... yes yes ... all are very valid n true ...

but everything is at least 2 sided ... from the other side ... waiting silently is juz like every week 4D buy same number and bo pi one day will tio ... u buy every week ... and get disappointed week after week but u dun spend mondays, tuesdays, thurdays and fridays wailing and lamenting that u didnt strike on wednesdays, saturdays and sundays rite ?? that is the so called correct attitude ... if tio then good lah ... bo tio also life carry on ... and not juz carry on ... it's carry on AS PER NORMAL ... u dun change ur life style ... u dun say u lost $4 on 4D so knn muz each one less bowl of maybe ur favourite kway zup to cover back ...

likewise ... if it is about waiting silently for a particular someone then it shld really be waiting silently ... presence shld not be felt ... or at least not felt as an interested party ... neither shld bad things about others be said in an attempt to improve the hope of getting even a slightest chance to be with that someone ... it's about being there when that someone need it ... and relinquish when not needed ...it's about the unconditional giving for that someone ... juz to even see that someone smile ... quite standard thingys tio bo ?? yes ... but the critical part is to do it without urself feeling miserable ...

feeling is something that is very rainbow-ie ... as in u never know when u will get to have one ... granted that u started out to just wanting to be there for that someone ... after being there for a while ... u cant bear to stop being there ... so come the time to stop being there ... tadah ... ur life becomes affected ... ya lah ... u most probably get the same feeling even if it applies to taking care of a hamster ... let alone a special someone ...

some taboos in waiting silently ...

unhappy is probably the top ... if the waiting silently is initiated unwillingly then it is gonna b a painful process ... ya lah ... couple break up then ger/guy decide to wait silently for the other party ... hmmm ... can ... u can wait ... but if u cant even get over or accept the fact that u 2 r no longer together ... how on earth r u going to live happily while waiting ?? i doubt that can be done ... somemore if u see other pple getting close and being close after the breakup ... will u bear to see it further ?? if u find that u r desperately changing ur lifestyle ... ur habits ... burying urself with loads to numb urself ... being depressed ... then u r not happy ... NOT HAPPY !!! u b washing ur face with tears everyday n cry urself to sleep everynite i tell u ...

cannot tahan not seeing/contacting the other party is the second taboo ... hmmm ... one sided initiated breakup means one party will not want to see another party at least for the time being ... as such ... if the guy/ger who got 'ditched' keep wanting to see and contact the other party ... the result most prob will be listening to excuses from the ditcher that he/she is busy ... not free ... not convenient ... not ard kinda lame crap ... some may say that as long i get to see him/her i be happy liao ... couple or not nm ... ya the thing is ... if he/she ditch u ... most prob he/she dun wan to see u lor ...

and the question that stunned most shld be "how often u had seen him/her after breakup?" ... precisely the point is that the answer is "rarely" ... so how on earth the ditchee going to satisfy his/her thirst for that guy/guy who ditch him/her while waiting silently ?? innovative solutions ??? ya ... someone who didnt wan to answer me the "how often u see him/her?" qn directly gave me something innovative ... he/she replied me "if u were to ask me ... i see him/her everyday coz i have his/her photos" YA RITE ... if u wanna agree that it helps ... then good lor ... i nothing to say ...

third taboo is expecting something in return for the silent wait ... already say liao ... machiam buy 4D ... u think buy long term surely will tio meh ?? no lor ... buy ALL numbers then surely will tio ... nothing is certain ... waiting is ur decision ... appreciating or not is the other party's decision ... he/she owes u no obligation for ur wait ... if not i can jolly well wait for jolin ... cyndi ... whoever that i think chio i also wait silently can liao ... when u get hopeful during ur wait and the next thing u know ... he/she getting married ... now now now ... u tell me if u wish that u b invited ?? or not ?? u tell me if u will wish them all the best or not ... i think most prob u will only fall heavier for having heavier hopes nia lor ...

to me ... waiting silently is something i admired ... only when done correctly ...

so if u r
1)unhappy
2)cannot tahan not seeing him/her
3)ur wait is not unconditional

DUN BOTHER WAITING ...

for entertainment for surviving till here ...

Love is juz like a sickness with a cycle ... it goes the 3Ps of life ... the pre .. the present n the post ...

PRE - SYNDROMES

一般发病后的初期反应
会开始是改变一些生活习性
洗脸洗得特别干净
刷牙刷得特别用力
半夜突然爬起来弹钢琴
有人每天站在阳台对路人傻笑
有人突然疯疯癫癫 突然很安静
有人一脸痴呆
对着镜子咬着指甲打喷嚏
有人对小狗骂三字经
女人突然改变发型
男人开始每天练着哑铃
食欲不振歇斯底里四肢萎缩
神经过敏发抖抽筋都出现在这时期

PRESENT SITUATION

随着病情越来越变本加厉
人会变得格外敏感和恶心
写的说的唱的都想天才诗人一般才华洋溢
越肉麻越觉得有趣
有人恋爱之后每天躲在厕所哭泣
有人开记者会宣布恋爱的消息
有人总是喜欢两个人躲在黑漆漆的地方
像做了不可告人的事情
每天忙着算命 挖空心思改变自己
配合对方的习性
把每天都当作纪念日
把自己当作纪念品

每天漫无目的腻在一起
言不及义也觉得好有趣
走着坐着躺着趴着都形影不离
像是两人三脚又像连体婴
心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管家里米缸有没有米
也不管路上有人示威抗议 只管爱你
心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管海峡两岸统一问题
也不管衣索匹亚多少难民 只管爱你

TOWARDS THE END

经过一段轰轰烈烈热恋时期
不久就会渐渐开始痊愈
两人开始互相厌倦互相攻击对方缺点
所有甜蜜都随风而去
然后开始从错觉和误解中清醒
惊讶自己为何如此不聪明
为了爱情不管一切
不顾父母朋友姐妹兄弟
开始感到后悔不已
然后开始感到疲惫
沉闷气喘心悸牙痛头痛梦呓
然后是精神不济瞳孔放大脾气暴躁
四肢麻痹终于受不了要分离


really very 现实 one lor ...

虽然结果颇令人伤心
了解之后也没什么了不起
爱情终究是握不住的云
只是我想要告诉你

在我落寞的岁月里
你的温柔解脱我的孤寂
带给我深深的狂喜
如此颤动我的心灵
轻轻诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你
不管是黑夜还是黎明
不管是梦中还是清醒
深深爱你

多么幸福 ... 让我遇见你

treasure while it lasts ...
and dun cry coz it's over ...
rejoice coz it had happened ...


KeL speaks @2:04 PM                                    _`天注定`_