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Monday, June 23, 2008


Jun 23 2008 --- Of the danger of blogging ...


yesterday after mj ... got a call from Lyn ... hmmm ... not that i mind getting calls lah ... kekeke ... but most of the time it isnt for something erm ... nice ... not that i mind listening to lamenting but i hope they dun have the need to lament ~ kekeke ... also ... it dawns on me the danger of blogging ... thank God my blog is juz limited to the handful few ard me =.=


talked to her in msn for a while after that ... backgrd ... erm ... yq wr and Lyn are 3 persons which are linked complicatedly =.= not full conversation lah ... some parts edited ... too sensitive ~
Lyn: angryyyyy lor ...

me: ??? who step on u wor ??

Lyn: not step actually ... juz feel not quite right ...

me: coz of wr ah ?

Lyn: in a way ...

me: wat happened wor ?

Lyn: i think he is like funny ... the things he says ...

me: like wat ?

Lyn: y cant he say things plainly ... always muz so general

me: erm ... u r general now too wor ... wat u mean ?

Lyn: that nite i was bored so i was smsing wr then asking wat he doing

me: okie ... then ?

Lyn: he say outside with fren at cine ... then watching kungfu panda ...

me: hmmm ...

Lyn: juz now i was blog surfing then i say yq's blog ... they went movies lor

me: erm ... wats wrong with it wor ?

Lyn: i mean ... i ask him doing wat y cant he say going watch movie with yq ? must say with fren ? as if i duno yq ... u think something is going on ?

me: duh ... wat can be going on ? think too much liao lor ...

Lyn: i juz feel dotzz reading her blog lor ...

me: hmmm ... put it this way ... he is telling the truth when he say he is with fren going to movie mah ... maybe if u had asked him which fren then he would hav told u ? its not like u asked then he tell u it is someone u duno de then now u found out it is yq rite ?

Lyn: if u were in my situation maybe u wun think like this lor

me: hmm ... no lor ... i only dun like being lied to ... but this one ... clearly is coz u nvr asked mah =/ its like he got chance to tell u who it is de but u didnt ask mah ... so cannot assume that he wun have told u if u had asked rite ? benefit of doubt goes to him i suppose ?

Lyn: i still bu shuang lor ...

me: anyway ... i did encounter ur situation before lor ... and erm ... i think i didnt flare up like u did wor ... not exactly the same but similar ba ... told me was with fren then ended up i realised the fren was someone i know de ...

Lyn: u dun feel like cheated meh ?

me: hmmm ... hai hao leh ... i mean ... its like wat i said ... i took it at face value that fren will means that i duno the person lor ... if i didnt ask ... the other party got no obligations to say mah ... such are basic privacy that interpersonal r/s shld have ba ? even if it means couple lor ...

Lyn: i still feel cheated ...

me: pls lor ... u n him are frens ... likewise ... taken at face value ... wr n yq also frens ... they dun need to account to u for wat they do rite ? anyway ignorance is bliss mah hahaha ... if u didnt know abt it u wun have feel this way now too rite ? also ... even if wr said upfront that he is with yq ... u probably had feel left out that they didnt jio u rite ?? =Pp

Lyn: so it becomes my fault liao ?

me: no lah ... not whose fault ... juz that i see it as good intention that he is speaking in general ba ... lest u start thinking that they left u out mah ... ur life dun juz revolve ard him n him n him nia rite ? liking a person is not like that de wor~ u chose to stick ard him and being there for him knowing that he doesnt feel the same for u wor ... so cannot complain now mah ...

Lyn: but its xin ku lor ...

me: it was never easy to begin with lah ... we all have the greed by nature ... who doesnt want to be with the person they like ? but really ... once u step out of the urge to possess a person ... u will really get the simple bliss of juz having the special someone ard u ... even if u both are not a couple ...

Lyn: u go be saint lor ...

me: hahaha ... ya ... i m ... my guild in game is SAINTS =Pp

me: hai ... dun silly le lah ... juz believe that no malice is intended then ok liao mah ... there isnt a need to explain everything de lor ... like i said ... if u dun believe me ... u wun believe my explantion ... if u believe in me ... u wun even need my explanation ^^

Lyn: =(

me: dun pout lah ... high time to move on also ... told u that u wun be able to handle it like me de lor =Pp but kinda surprise that u hang on till now lah ... commendable effort kekekeke

Lyn: shit u lor ... gnd lah !!!!


hmmm ... the later small part censored liao ... personal liao ... looking back i do think its true that if 2 persons are trueful to each other ... alot of things neednt require explanation ... or maybe sometimes its these little scars here and there that serves to remind me of how important a particular person is ba ...


the next time someone asked u wat u r doing ... wat would u say ?


KeL speaks @10:43 AM                                    _`天注定`_