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Saturday, May 22, 2010


May 22 2010 --- Its been almost another 6 months


ever since facebook came into my life i had sorta forgot alot about this blog of mine ... as i had always mentioned previously ... few knew abt this blog ... no one hardly monitor this blog so it probably doesnt make that much of a difference with or without new entries to it ... the situation probably get worse after i got my iphone ... its with me almost all the time ... i update status in fb whenever i wanna kpkb at something ... i post interesting pics ... fun escapdes ... anything everything almost realtime ...

but well ... i guess the fb is probably more public than this little private blog of mine and i guess its been like almost half a year since i last updated this ... there are some thots which i guess will invite too many questions if i post it on fb so maybe blogging is another appropriate avenue ~

many thoughts have ran thru my mind and many little crisises of all sorts had been moving in n out of my life ... i had juggled them here and there as much as possible to solve and manage them ... sometimes i wonder when will all this juz end ... there are many things i feel that i could have accomplished or plan to accomplish but its always lacking the east wind ... i m always that handicapped by the fateful X factor ... and the best part is ... when it came by my way ... i either miss it or squandered the opportunity away ... sometimes i asked myself ... is it life or is it me ?? i seriously do not want to see history repeating itself over n over again ... but somehow it seems like i m always lacking the discipline when the opportunity arises ...

i have to stop landing myself in crisis if i am going to change the way things are now and i m like looking for divine intervention to give me a good push to surge ahead ... stupid it may seems but seriously i duno wat else to hope for to get myself out of the crisis fast enuff =/

i guess if i get past this crisis totally ... i probably force myself in one way or another not to repeat this damn mistake again ... hahaha ... how realistic this is i seriously do not know but i guess i can only keep fingers crossed for the time being ... as per what i had been doing all these while ...

i think i can i think i can i think i can ...... let me do it !!


KeL speaks @11:28 PM                                    _`天注定`_