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Wednesday, February 15, 2006


Feb 15 2006 --- Feel


hmmm ... wandered ard juz now ... unwittingly found myself back at VCH ... for no apparent reasons i guess ... i juz walked and ended up there ... it has changed over time ... seriously it has ... no more snack bar ... new ceiling ... cleaner stairs ... some things didnt change though ... the carpet at my 'secret' corner still the same ... maybe except that there wasnt any of the familiar music rehearsal going on ...

sat a while there ... staring at the stage i recalled some things of the past ... mixed with wat a fren told me very recently ... he said to me in chinese saying that he feel cowardly ... he seems to b reluctant to enter into a new relationship after his previous one was brutally ended by the demise of the girl ... hmmm ... that was something i only knew of recently ironically ... maybe that also served as an explanation to me as to y he wasnt attached during the time i knew him despite him being quite a good catch ...

i think i shared a common part of his in the sense that there are some things that i cant put behind too ... or maybe i thot that i did ... love isnt something that i yearn a lot for quite a while ... for a long time i was hoping to hav and yet hoping it wun really come true ... i would say i wun hav known how to handle it if i really had it ... there r very nice gers who entered my life and left prints in it but i didnt really do anything ... or rather ... maybe nothing would hav come out of it anyway lah ...

enuff of depressing thots ... come to think of it ... this vday i did do something nice one lah ... though i hadnt bought vday gifts wholeheartedly for a while ... (to elaborate ... normally i will juz find out wat a person like n get that particular thing thus it's kinda rare to see me 'racking brains' to think of wat to buy) ... this yr ... i did ... i got a ring for my gf or someone like that ... yes ... sound nice ya ?? ya lah ... it's juz kinda complicated lah ... actually was buying one for her but the salesgirl 'convinced' me to get the pair ... ya lah ... i did and i quite like it though ... passed to her on vday eve ... the smart ger see the package and immediately said 2 sentences "it's a ring rite?" and retorted "if it isnt a 5 carat one i dun wan!" ... -__-" ok lah ... it's the thots that counts rite ?? =Pp anyway she said it is nice ... mean it or not i duno lah ... but the sentence brighten up my day(nite actually) though ^-^

ya lah .. that marks vday 2006 ... a partially attached vday ... hmmm ... how nice if there is a nice n quiet place for a drink now kekekeke ... 13 more days to go ^-^


KeL speaks @12:40 AM                                    _`天注定`_