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Thursday, February 09, 2006


Feb 9 2006 --- Drained ...


hmmm ... didnt go to work yesterday ... somehow juz didnt had the feeling to work ... nono ... i still love my job alot ... no changes about that ... juz feel overall-ly tired i guess ... hmmm ... someone set me thinking about things that i hadnt been thinking or rather things that i had been thinking subconsciously ... come to think of it ... i m starting to wonder if it is these subconscious thinking that had been zapping me of energy on occassions when i cant explain my tiredness ... tired physically ... mentally ... emotionally ... or maybe i m glad that i was made to put my thots to words ... maybe it would really serve as a reminder to myself that i have an 'schedule' to adhere to ...

i spent the afternoon indulging in vcd that i borrowed from mike ... hmmm ... more of like trying to bury myself in the show ... yes ... i duno wat trigger that thing in me but i juz hav the urge to retreat back to my 'chalet' and isolate there ... or juz going bac to the vch corner ... lotsa thots came back to me and i juz ended up staring blankly as the player plays the show ... hmmm ... is my life really that tiring ?

maybe ... juz maybe ... maybe i m due for changes ... i m still very drained ... but i guess it is still back to work later ...

ps: i m on a no alcohol period for feb 2006


KeL speaks @12:47 AM                                    _`天注定`_