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Monday, August 09, 2010


Aug 9 2010 --- NDP 2010


long weekend is almost over in a flash ... been looking forward to not having to go to work and well ... after a long week of weekdays and finally reaching weekend ... it ALWAYS end up passing by in a flash ... even if it is a long weekend ... gosh ... damn it ... y do weekend pass so fast ... okie ... i know its probably juz relatively faster since time is constant regardless of weekday or weekend ... but still .... DOTZZZzzz ... how good if my mind can adjust itself and make weekday pass by like weekend and vice versa xD ... okie ... crap i know ~~

spend the day at home rotting and resting ... its NDP 2010 ~~ caught most parts of it on TV as usual ... i think its been years of submitting names to ballot for NDP tickets but well ... its always a futile attempt ... i think at least the queue system still gave credit to the strong yearning pple to get tickets ... be it for attending or for resale lah =/ ... looking at the parade i cant help but feel that Singapore had indeed grown ... and its like the growth was largely due to a handful of persons ... our current president is currently 86 ... MM is going 87 in another month ... SM is turning 70 next year ... PM is 58 ... though i aint too sure if thats normal for other countries or not but somehow i was like gasping and thinking ... no wonder MM says there shld not b a retirement age ... anyway i do feel proud that Singapore had come this far and provide a stable home and life for Singaporeans at large ... at least i cannot complain that i m suffering in life now though i always dream of how nice life in other countries may be ... which set me thinking about decisions and choices in life ...

life is never easy ... we dun get to choose at times ... when we get to choose ... we may not choose the right one ... even if the right one was chosen ... we may still look back and regret not making another choice ...

at birth ... we dont get to choose ... we dun get to choose where and which family to be born into ... or maybe we did but we cannot mortally recall but well ... that equates to not having a choice and no incentive to lament over y some other pple are born with nice colored spoon and the only job in their life is to think hard on how to spend the massive fortune the family has ... in that aspect ... so the typical scenario where u have to choose between having a rich family without warmth or a poor one with warmth ... i guess there is no right or wrong in whichever anyone choose ... juz how much warmth/riches a person yearns ... well ... nevertheless ... regardless which one a person prefers ... the choice is made at birth and *cough* not made by the person in question ... thats the first gift from LIFE ?

as we grow up ... LIFE start to be a bit better and grant more autonomy to us ... every step in life is a choice ... we choose the steps we want to trek ... some choices are more apparent while some choices are hidden ... surely there are times when our defence to wrong decision or faults is the common ... "i DUN have a choice" ... in actual fact ... there are always choices ... juz that some choices are never considered right from the start and so subconsciously that option was never listed as choice in the mind ... but really ... it is always there ... juz a matter of how u seek out the choices and make a decision ~~

Certain decisions are tough ... tougher when u have to make it fast ... toughest when u have to make it fast and right ... not forgetting to mention fast and right with no regrets when looking back at the decision made ... sometimes in life ... time is indeed too luxurious an item that most of us cannot reach ... way of life ... but still ... doesnt change the fact that we are always fighting against time to make critical decisions that can affect our life going forward ... i guess its really something that no one can help us with or able to be responsible for the implications that a decision made by them on our behalf can have on our life ...

its back to work tomorrow ... its back to decision making in life again ... tough .. tougher ... toughest ... how to make things work out nicely and strike a good balance with all the things leh ??? unless my masterplan gets accelerated ... if not ... slogging time still goes on for the time being ~~~~ grrrr ~~~~

okie ... lastly .... Happy National Day Singapore ~


KeL speaks @11:08 PM                                    _`天注定`_