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Tuesday, October 25, 2011


Oct 25 2011 --- Life ... Fragile ...


People always say life is fragile ... indeed i agree all along ... just that i had always taken that at face value and never ascertian what it actually mean by fragile ...

Just received a call from RMG to report back to the clinic regarding my pre employment check up ... seems like something is up from the xray that i had taken ... hmmm ... lungs ... the very first thought that came to mind ... is those smoking that i had been doing the past decade decided to make their claim on me ?? ok ... indeed i purposely led myself up this train of thought to see how it really feels like at the moment of suspense while not knowing what the doc has to say to me ...

seriously i asked myself if i m afraid of dying ... actually i think not really ... i think i dread the nagging from home more ... about how smoking caused this and that blah blah blah ... hmmm ... selfish thoughts i guess ... but i know my family is well provided for shld i not be around ... yes ... physically there is nothing they can do to change anything but financially wise i m glad that they are well covered by what i will be leaving behind shld the worst happen ...
hmmm ... maybe this scare might juz jab me into leading a more healthy lifesytle compare to the kind of junky one i had been having for years ... never know ... but well ... time will tell ... lets see what the doc have to say later on =X

my guess ... its probably a poorly taken xray ... i retook it twice that day alrdy ... i kept telling the lab guy i cannot breathe deeply if he dun adjust the machine slightly lower ... in the end now i keena called back ... ok ... thats probably how i m going to console myself for now ~~

*keeping fingers crossed that it is a false alarm*


KeL speaks @4:38 PM                                    _`天注定`_