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Monday, October 04, 2010


Oct 4 2010 --- Shitzz~


its monday blues as usual ... as usual ever since 4 months ago ... ya ... wonder if the shift really did impact me that much ... but well ... the feeling of monday blues sure sucks ... i think i really dread the thoughts of having daily tasks that must be done on a routine basis ... but on the other hand i like things that are repetitive ... kinda contradicting ya ? thats so me >< ...

something i wanted to post on FB .... which i did and i deleted immediately after posting ... i didnt wanna invite trouble of too many pple asking wat it is all about coz i cant really explain ... i wanted to post on gtalk nick but the list is all company pple and it probably invite the same outcome ...

i so wanted to post "the feeling is so wrong" ... wat is so wrong ... i received SMS telling me that boss is not going to be in office ... and i immediately feel a lighter shade of blue ... darn it ... i totally hate this feeling ... i dun hate the boss ... seriously i think she is a super nice n capable person but i cant help but feel relieved that i am going to have abit more breathing space ... on the hindsight ... i started thinking if it was juz my level of competence which lag too far behind her that i m having a hard time catching up ... the usual me of course refused to believe that i m unable to keep up with her and probably attribute the gap to the 1001 reasons i can think of but i guess the reality is crude and cold ... i gotta admit that the passion for R is not as burning as for E ... somehow i juz dun feel the warmth here anymore ...

while i battle this feeling ... i shall still sincerely wish for boss to be able to juggle her issues well ... as for me ... i think sometimes when things comes to a standstill i shall jus have to go for desperate measures if desperate times comes ba ... *keeping fingers crossed*


KeL speaks @9:24 AM                                    _`天注定`_