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Wednesday, July 28, 2004


July 28 2004 --- Mixture


Is it really true that time can heal all things ? even if it cant ... maybe it can tone things down and make one forget things ... one wonder wat is the worst feeling in the world ? losing a loved one ? or not being loved for loving ? or seeing the one who oneself love with in ur exact same situation ? is it the love gotten that makes one yearns for today or is it the love that could be lost that makes one dread tomorrow ? there was a time when pple say that singapore wun make it but we did .... oops ... hahaha ... there was a time when one feel that everything was so fine and well ... but sometimes one do realise that oneself has its vulnerable side also ... the fresh flesh that hurts upon contact ... even if it means a gentle cool breeze brushing lightly against it ... *ouch* it does hurt ... it really does ... but wat exactly hurts ? hmmm ... ta ye bu zhi dao ... i know he haven been in the best of his mood for sure ... i know he is snappy at times also ... i know there r pple who can influence his mood ... and i know the reason y he is not feeling good also ... i really do ... his feeling of hanging nowhere ... his feeling of xin ku ... his feeling of "not understanding y cant things be straight forward" ... lotsa more ... the only way for him is not to face it and to keep pressing it deep down into the heart and not to think ... at least things that one dun see and feel is more bearable ... juz like how the song 'ye zi' by ah sang goes ... wo xiang wo bu jin jing shi si qu ni ... hmmm ... ya lah ... pple often say "tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi" ... i quite agree ... ending is inevitable ... juz that if the end was a willing end or not ... seeking to explore oneself more ... maybe maybe ... ta hao lei ... ye hao ruan ... she mo dou bu xiang qu xiang ... hurtz ... how long can it keep going ne ? his feeling of she bu de ... deep down it is clear to him that hanging in there is juz plain suffering ... but humans advert changes ... changes means a whole cycle of getting used to it again ... learning how to use a new operating system ... learning to use a substitute software ... learning to cope with lower pay ... learning to use crutches ... learn to touch instead of seeing ... all these are changes that maybe at some point in our life we will be thrown into ... not very nice ... but if one has to go through it ... one has to ... not much of a choice ... if he ever lose her ... i know he will fall .... fall hard ... very very hard ... how every of his feeling n mood is linked to her ... all the memories and joy that she has given him ... seeing her thru her hard times bring him tears ... knowing that her joy never do last is helpless ... knowing that he can only love her and see her loving others ... how long can he last ?? i told him ... it's all meant to be ... and till now ... no response ... shall see as we go along ba =)

Ah Sang : wo xiang wo bu jin jing shi si qu ni .......




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