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Sunday, May 22, 2011


May 22 2011 --- Getting There~


hmmm ... back to the usual vicious cycle ... its monday tomolo ... back to sucky work ... well ... i guess i m in the self whining mode again ... actually there is no real big deal in wat i m covering ... afterall its juz a one month affair afterwhich i can throw it out ... but i wonder y i had such serious thoughts of leaving ... petty minded me i guess ...

anyway i was looking at the past events and happenings in office during the last few years and some thoughts actually came to my mind ... i realised that all along there had been no wastage in utilising the slots for promotion all these while which set me thinking ... with seri leaving ... would there be a possibility that others will get their shot at a promotion?? hmmm ... i kinda expecting that it would most probably be the case ... after all these years in public service ... i somehow feels like i m kinda well versed in how they gonna lay their cards and play their hands~ let me guess ... a vacancy for promotion after CO left ... and there is no available one who can be promoted ... that would means a CPSO will kio sai and get the promotion?? lets see ... for CPSO ... who are the available ones ... well ... probably i only have one option ... which is JY ~~ hahaha ... dare say that the only ones who can be pushed this round will only be me or her ... which politically correct stand would be both of us will remain status quo ... but well ... if gotta force a choice between the 2 of us ... i guess its easier to choose her since my fren whom i reco in wouldnt be promoted and it wouldnt make sense to have me being 2 promos ahead ~~ so lets see how things unroll this coming promotion run xD lets see if i know my boss well xD

but on the other hand ... if they really die die dun wan to waste slots ... it means that my boss gonna get her promo too ... kaoz ... SM alrdy like that liao ... up one more level sure die =.= i guess its high time to put an end to the usual stepping on the team to climb thingy ... i so gonna move on to another job if she really get promoted lor ... and probably create an uproar ... waiting to see if the core team will follow suit and leave ~~ ok lah ... i m not that influential to them but just that i m kinda sure life will be different without me ard ... caveat abit ... it may be for the better without me ard ~~ in case pple wondering y i so haolian one =X

hmmm ... wonder how my interviews will end up ... not that hopeful but not that desperate also ... afterall i still keen to secure haze's transfer before i go ... i guess the last thing i want is to sabo her chance of getting out of the team since she had waited so long before being able to get a shot at the section she wanted to be in ... plus her pregnancy will means that she might be staying ard a bit more and it certainly helps if she is in a section that she likes ~~

ok ~~ job aside ... i still have my ultimate dream which i had been trying and failing at and still hadnt given up ... that is probably the LONGEST target that i had kept myself going all these while despite all the obstacles and failures ... this is the one target that i had been shooting at without being daunted by the failures .... yes ... the target that can compensate for all that i had given up shld i reach the finish line ... gotta press myself to stride forward consistently ... jiayou .... one fine day i will get there!!! i will ... i will ... i will ...


KeL speaks @10:34 PM                                    _`天注定`_