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Tuesday, May 31, 2011


May 31 2011 --- Monday Light Blues


hmmm ... monday light blues ... didnt get to work today ... resentment is setting in real fast ... wonder how much more longer i can last ... but in actual fact ... the real problem is that there is essentially nothing wrong ... juz a tinge of unwillingness to do what i have to do ... ok ... back to basics i guess there is really no point in torturing myself if the passion is no longer there ...

had kopi session with spong ytd night ... as usual our talk revolved ard our life and how things had been going on ... a buddy whom somehow came unknowingly during army days ... there is this strange bonding there which cannot really put to words ... more like we juz had the character traits that each other needs ... an occassional talk between us always end up with each of us taking away with us some important learnings towards our queries in life ... well ... i kinda envy how he had fared so far ... yup ... i think to have achieved that much would be such a blessing for me ... i guess life would have been super different ... shrug ... too bad i cant progress much at this juncture with all the things tying me down ... wat i need to get on with life is like peanuts to the others ... but to me its juz so unattainable ... God ... please help me ... give me the licence to surge ahead ...

jiayou hau ... dun lose faith ... will get there one day =)


KeL speaks @6:52 PM                                    _`天注定`_